How I wish,
How I wish you were here,
We're a world of lost souls,
swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over the same old ground,
what have we found?
the same old fears,
I wish you were here.
-googoo dolls.

realised i hvnt been blogging about wht ive been doing recently..erm recall..
backtrack to tues ; dear sis came cj to pick me up..haha due to the trauma the prev day. so sweet huh :) thn err had taka food w her+eugene. weds ; dance, horrid. thurs ; met up w dinah+mina! wyn crashed mi so she came along w dinah for a while. had unbelievably HOT sizzling hot ramen at cine then watched fockers. so lame, the show. martha focker. hahah. fri ; dance again, supp to meet aileen aft tht bt didnt..sorry! sat ; towned w dinah+da..mina cldnt make it :( were v stony and moody. da tried to lighten the mood bt hah. we were incorrigible. walked around and blah. bought yet anothr mango tee and an electric blue spag..its too friggin bright. gonna exchange it for smth else tmrw. then went kino..blahblah.

and tdy, yawn. jst did math hmwk. got an lit essay to pen :|
sigh. school rocks ah.

or am i standing still
beneath the darkened sky
or am i standing still
with the scenery flying by
or am i standing still
out of the corner of my eye
was that you
passing me by

:) ive nvr felt so tired yet contented (quite)..jc life is busybusybusy! ok i still town but the thing is, every minute is really spent doing something. err. yea, stoning, singing, talking and checking out * included, but yea. seriously occupied also la. mm, maybe after 2 years of being in cj, i wont hv flabby thighs anm. all tht pe! :|

aights. i kinda like my clsmates! :) and i love da, mina, dinah, yins, ree, nana! :D thanks for being thr for me whn i ws unbearably pessimistic. ive nvr felt closer to you guys. and of cos, my terribly sympathetic best friend tings, youre being perpetually missed.. :( :( :( :(

yay! my days are getting better :)

thanks to all! hehe. nana told me 'see! chey. you ah, v irritating!'
i'll box her very soon.

'you are bored, i am card, together we are cardboard' -eugene
:|

kinda like my clsmates now :) bt im damn worried tht things will screw up again..cos i think my words and thoughts are jinxed..lyk whn i think things are good, the next day things get really fucked all over again. ok touch wood..

ok pe ws lyk..pui. were supp to run for 20mins non stop!! nuts. ran 10 rounds. which is lyk 3.3km, if im nt wrong. i cant believe it! ive nvr ran so much bfore in my entire life. and the GST and push ups are really getting to me. our tcher has a habit of singing to himself whn he gets us to hold on in tht push up position. faints. aching all ovr nw. oh yea and aft pe everyone sitting around my area suddenly will smell lyk oceanus. take my body spray la..haha. and thr ws dance jst nw..damn screwed!! hahah. rubbishy..bt mich chow ws lyk freaking good. n ooh think da got in the syf! yay! congrats girl. and the nudgenudge thing tht you found out is lyk, so sweet!! aww..hahah.

and i ws half blind the whole day..one side of my contacts were irritating me so i threw it on the floor.


cj is obsessed w pe. i hv pe consecutively for 3 days..thrs still tmrw to anticipate. ha ha..
:|

steph sigh. long story. tell you anothr day whn we FINALLY meet..been so long! too long! ..cross stitch is so ystd. and besides, im in a v poor condition. yknw whn i sneeze of laugh my rib cage area hurts lyk hell. freaking pe. situps and everyth. ive nvr bn more sporty i tell you. IVE always been the weak tofu!! so hw's sch nw? better right? i love you too! miss you a lot a lot a lot a lot. a lot. ):

jolene heyy. haha no la. the cls seems to be better everyday :) thanks for everyth ah. shit, dance ws horrid. need to hole up in a corner and nvr come out..haha. psst. tell you abt * tmrw. shhh. hahah.

sq momsie!! i miss you alot -sniffs. hahahha. MATH TOYS. i see. haha my cls is ok la..bad day tht day. tell you anothr day! yea we GOTTA meet! k? looove. (:

im talking to tings online now. we're having a v nice conversation on *. excpt she kps insisting tun is better. ok inside joke. off! :)

for tings

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning

that may be all i need.

ok i hv abso fucking lutely no comments about my day.
maybe jst more negative feedbacks.
guess im back to the cry-everyday cycle.
i swear, i never thought things could be ths bad. talked to people. thanks for cheering me up when i needed you guys..you all rock.
and GET THIS. if you dont understand me and that im going through a horribly rough patch, jst back off. i dont need your comments about how i seem to attend a triple science cls in sec school filled w nerds cos im so quiet and dont share the same level of humour (your i------- jokes). everybody is different. and i dont understand you. but you dont see me asking you why youre such a..whatever, do you? i really dont need this. we're of different wavelength, frequency, whatever. ok i believe ive said enough. shall stop right here bfore i get more pissed and get more critical.
whatever.
good day.

outrageous, so contagious.

heh. ok i change my mind..cj is really quite okay. cos my clsmates are really nice and all. i shall try to fit in and stop whining..let's jst say tht previous concerns shall not be as paramount. aiya. im jst being caught in a paradox.
anyway. ystd went out w da and friends..ws qt fun. in a mellow way. i suck at all arcade games la. so embarassing, losing like every game. anw. caught up w freda kwokie dsf..she and her eye candy :| youre seriously unstraight, girl. mpfh, sleepy and tired.
BUT! still gonna meet xin and the rest ltr :)

happy 17 bday dinah. i love you!

i miss everyone. ltr ltr.
ooh, saw pic of st nicks cheer squad in the mpr in the newsppr. haha i even miss the mpr! lame..but yea. rmb hw sports day used to be. screaming and jumping and all. i'd be cheering for st nicks damn willingly now. so weird to say cj rocks when i dont completely sing the same tune..
tsk, cant believe seed of chucky is m18. when i turned 16, i thought pg freak was over. hello nc16. but apparently..times have progressed :|

jolene heyy. obliged to write positive stuff abt our cls nw tht youre signing my gbk. haha kidding. anwayyy. thanks dear :) you made me smile lahh. haha.

damn worn out but still came online!
ok my rantings sounded so pathetic. but yea im glad to say this entry carries a lighter note..came to realise tht my cls is actually ok la..jst cldnt adapt at the beginning. but still. damn sad tht thr are no girly girls in my cls. oh well. at least everyone is nice. including the facilitator (who's also hunky btw haha) and people are damn lame. and through ths ive become less anti-nerds and racist. BUT STILL. no girly girls. its really damn saddening. nobdy to shop with :( or talk to. bt nvm. i shall resume my own girliness. thrs ths cute j2 guy :) hehe. nothing is gonna stop me..! frm being girly, tht is. sigh. how life changes within a few months. i cant believe it, i really cant. i miss tings a lot. hell damn lot. no one knows how much. i can like, cry anytime when i think about it. which is damn stupid and sad la. bt i cant help it. sigh.
anw. im now known as tweety..cos of ths performance. i hope i wsnt too sucky cos the mask ws huuuge. i cldnt see properly. skipping about randomly. reminds me of brownian motion. hahaha. ok i miss secondary school life. i miss st nicks. fucken much.

life..has never been worse.
i find myself crying every single fucking day ever since day 1 of the orientation. i miss huang weiting and all my friends and st nicks and my whole class (yes including jam..im sorry ive been mean..i love you now) like damn fucking much. and i have NO appetite at all ever since day 1. believe it or not, today i only ate 1/3 of a plate of fried noodles, 2 cans of green tea and breakfast at home. and now i dont even feel like eating dinner. stomach just stopped feeling hunger at all. i think im gonna shrivel up and die soon. i havent laughed, as in REALLY SO FUNNY kinda laughter since god knows when. i havent had a girly talk since monkey years ago. i havent discussed about books, makeup, clothes, cute guys, tv shows, since forever. i havent gossiped about anyone or anyTHING. i didnt even complain about my nails breaking. not a squeak. i didnt even think about being flat chested till like, now, when im thinking what i havent been doing. i havent had a nice talk. i havent been to town though my school is fucking near. ive been going home alone every single fucking day. i havent felt AT ALL any teeny weeny bit of ease in the school unlike st nicks. i havent hugged anyone for decades. i got into trouble on the 2nd day of school cos i was TALKING. as in huge trouble. cos i was talking. WOW, IM SORRY FOR TALKING..i hate the way things are now. i can see that the facilitators are trying to spice things up but i dont see what the fuck is so fun about cj. i really dont. im not, i reitarate, im not having a good time. at all. all ive achieved are blisters on my feet and cuts on my fingers from kayaking. i spend every day getting worn out and being busy doing NOTHING THAT I LIKE AT ALL. i mean, people are nice and all but..its just not the same. every day i sit with my class keeping quiet and laughing when appropriate. and as i can see, everyone else is having fun. well, good for you. i feel like dying. no kidding. so yea, have a great time man.

first day

was boring boring boring..admin stuff. mass dance ws horrid. think my partner (hes a guy) danced better than me..i shall go hole up in a corner. ws too sleepy w a headache to evn open my eyes..sigh. shoulda tried to sleep early and wake up early in the hols lyk a nutcase..prob is i cant sleep early anm..sigh. shall force my eyes shut..btw btw IM TALKING TO TINGS!! online :) teehee. made my day. or my night. whtever. -grins! sigh i miss her. lyk damn fucken a lot. feeling lyk a little junior loser in the new school. though its nt intimidating or anyth. i want st nicks!! i want my life back to normal. ths is very sucky. oh well. hope tmrw will b better..see ya'll..at the bus stop :( mm, shall try to stop being morbid and depressing..i cant live without tings to gossip with..life is meaningless.. :(

HAPPY 2005!! (:

blogged that title last night..i mean, this morning when i reached home..too tired to blog more so i went to sleep..haha continuation now! 2pm. anw, was really fun, counting down with da, mina, dinah, jade then yimin joined us ltr..(she actually cabbed frm the airport aft landing from some other country!) haha. sprayed like nuts la. screaming and laughing. was still damn psyched till i fell asleep.

anyway. thurs was spent with ree!! i love that girl to bits and pieces! haha tht reminds me of the shop bits and pieces. we bought earrings!! cheaper than that stupid heeren pok shop which conned innocuous me. hmrpf. cunning and sly. and we also went nuts in borders..books galore!! bought 2 gossip girls and pride and prejudice..and i jst realised i bought book 1 and 4 of gossip girls! and nw tht im done w book 1 i cant go on and read book 4 cos tht'll be like, jumping. grr. feeling cheated nw. shall go get books 2 and 3. and the worst thing is tht its nt even fantastic..prefer shopaholic and all. the contents seem childish, as in, like, quite lame..but i still wanna read! bad bad..anw we were so poor we could only gaze longingly at the books we wanted..haha 50bucks for a book, im not up to it, sadly. rather spend it eating or at the mango sale. haha cos the thing about books is tht you cant tell if its genuinely good. as in, looks can be deceiving! waste of money la. nvr judge a book by its cover. and nowadays all those paperbacks are so pretty..haha. k, im on a roll.

thrs stacie oricco on the radio ; i promise. reminds me of steph. and then i remember : school's starting in 2 days!! ugh. grr. stomach's knotted with dread..eh. why stomach? and not, like brains knotted with dread? think my brains have been knotted enough. all that cramming for the o's. or maybe theyve already unknotted themselves after 1.5months of a stress-free lifestyle..haha im so crappy. suddenly recall how i stuffed myself ystd. ws eating 24/7. ate breakfast at around 12, ate lunch at delifrance w sis at 2+, then when i wenta meet mina syl and da, ate gelato ice cream (this reminds me! i bought tht on thurs w ree and freaking dropped it on the taka grid tiles after a few steps from the shop. traumatised.) then macs fries (was sneakily stuffing a fry by a fry into my mouth while the others pooled..) ..then a bite of mina's taiwanese sausage..then BIGG meal at subway!! yea, had lotsa tomatoes and turkey ham and breast and lettuces and bread ystd..thn aft tht i swore off food cos my stomach ws completely bloated. butt!! broke a bit of the subway cookie and made a wrong choice of putting it in my mouth..been eating tht ever since. irresistable la. couldnt stop..btw subway has really huuge and yummylicious cookies. cheapp also. ooh. as you can conclude, im such a pig. gonna balloon up like someone we saw in town soon.

gonna change my layout soon!! i like this one, but i dont like it enough to not change it. haha. whatever wendy.

mm, was reading the paper jst nw, and i started crying! i didnt even know i was snifling away till i reached for a tissue. sigh. devastasting and depressing la, all the stuff that fill the newspapers now. the newspapers has become like, a stack of papers with informative orbituaries in coloured photos. disasters..tidal waves..fires..blah blah. feeling kinda safe here in little singapore. haha. but then again, you never know what can happen.

tsktsk.
off!
thts all ive got to say,
cant think of a better way.
thts all i have to say,
i love you, is tht ok?

la di da.
i hope this year would be good. really really hope!

'ripped of wai's

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
- try to grow up? haha, i think every year i try to be less immature and not kick up a big fuss over trivial matters. working, definitely. KIDS. -shakes head.. o's. nightmare. graduation, found it ws all a big fuss over nothing. a! my bangs. haha. and also, send my best friend away. i dont really want to do that ever again. mm, on a lighter note, ooh craziest shopping ths year ;)

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- i cant really recall last yr's resolutions, as always..haha bt it shld be something like mug hard blah. didnt really happen, but ths year, there were goods and bads..

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
- LAUGHS OUT LOUD..we live in the 21st century, not in China.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
- hell, no.

5. What countries did you visit?
- none!! growls.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
- holding on to friends, better grades, the usual.

7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- i dont remember dates, but blur of events.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- wht hv i achieved? wouldnt be right to say nothing..bt i guess theyre all small achievements.

9. What was your biggest failure?
- being less self centred..its always been me me me..and MAYBE i shld b more family oriented..IF i pick up some anger management skills..

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
- oh, my eyes. been giving me lotsa trouble. actually its the bloody contacts. CPCs la (is tht wht its called?) oh and tht mysterious grave headache+puking experience during physics prelims. horrid.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
- hee. lots.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
- haha ths qn sounds as tho im supp to say someone helped an old lady cross the road or someone stopped sleeping around. but err.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
- dont think i should name anyone. but there were people who did jst tht. and maybe i mde people appalled and depressed too. haha

14. Where did most of your money go?
- sigh. dumb qn..shopping la.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- got really psyched over a couple of things. bt dnt think it lasted.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
- electriko's (sp?) running away or smth. for some particularly annonymous reason.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
- happier, and sadder. haha okok happier lahh.

b) thinner or fatter?
- huh. i didnt grow taller la, happy? so around the same weight.

c) richer or poorer?
- ..sigh. hate money matters..maybe both. shopping ws pretty extreme as compared to prev years bt hey, i worked!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
- spending time with the best friend, concentrating more when mugging!! (tsk. cjc..)

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
- lets jst say i wish i'd spend less time on some people and more on others had i known the consequences..certain things would have brought me.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
- you mean next year? hopefully kissing happily underneath the mistletoe. haha ok rolls eyes. with people i love! friends, family..

21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
- yes.

22. How many one-night stands?
- zilch..

23. What was your favorite TV program?
- duh. the oc.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
- hatred is bad! dislike maybe, bt not intense or anything.

25. What was the best book you read?
- ooh lotsa tear ducts inducing books bt i cant remember the titles. oh and dan brown's good. my fave : angels and demons.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- er. tht i still like britney spears HAHA.

27. What did you want and get?
- quite a lot. haha materialistically speaking.

28. What did you want and not get?
- lots of stuff.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
- TROY. fab show. spidey2 too! all-time favourite : Bring it on. hahaha..

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- jst turned 16 on the 12th. spent with friends and families..didnt have a good one this year.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
- ooh. haha not as terrible as any year back i think. i'd say, colours!

33. What kept you sane?
- the best friend. so the word KEPT, past tense, is apt here. other daily neccesities. duh..

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
- more than a couple of, but most, i'd say mary kate olsen.

36. Who did you miss?
- lots of people.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
- well, i dont know about new. best person ive met would be the best friend, obviously. who is being missed A LOT. reply my mail!! -growls.

mm just cleaned up the bedroom. thrs still the study room. bt too lazy to move..haha. sis and i had cheap deal at mos. sis and i cleaned up the bedrm togth jst nw. sis and i cant stand otelli edwards cos she sucks at dj-ing and florence lian shld jst fire her. sis and i look like twins to people who've jst met us. sis and i (and lots of other people) agree that steph looks like another sister of ours. sis and i are almost of the same height and weight. (shes taller and thus heavier but i'd like to believe im taller..) sis and i jst quarreled ystd. sis and i love each other now :) hahaha.

met up w pri sch clsmates ystd. haha. yes, unbelievable. but everyone looks the same to me! d'oh! reminiscing (sp?) the old old days..had a traumatising chinese teacher for 2 years (chan ah moy) she is every child's nightmare..all the poems she made us memorise..and her monterous Saliva Spits and mthd of throwing books on the flr whn we didnt do our ting xie corrections, washing the loo whn marilyn spilled the mo (ink) AND! whn she hollered at me and mde me sit at the tcher's table to complete my zhi shi bao for the first time i got so drowsy and fell aslp in her lesson (yea i only fell aslp in cls once in pri sch) are all etched in my mind..haha damn funny. watched kung fu hustle ; super lame, dont waste your money. ate at nydc ; mud pie ws damn good, pizza sucked. took neos ; wow! my face so bigg at the back!! (hpe you caught my sacarsm..)

aights. im off to bathe. feeling dirty. haha

chen heyy. yea me too :) take care, see ya around..love YOU!

mm. i will not be upset.
but actually im not really upset anyway.
im perfectly fine with this..
ths hols has been pretty extreme. really good but really sucky too.
but i will nt be upset, i will not..

jewel ; winter wonderland :)

hee! im in quite a good mood. must be the christmas spirit. ive never been more family-ish. haha gna pick out new fridge w mum ltr..she cnt stp complaining tht she cnt buy ths 'cool' (i hv to see it for myself..) new fridge cos the fridge space is inadequate due to my dad's careless measurements when we moved house..and she kps telling me shes v keen in ths dvd machine w dnt knw wht new recording features..uhh. guess housewives nearing the big 50 are into household appliances..

bt im not! bought school shoes :D its roxy and pinkish and pale brown-greyish. ws nt wht i wanted to buy initially bt the 'punk shoes' (according to my sis) were err so huge i look like im stomping around w my feet wrapped up in blocks. andandand thrs the mango sale. hehe. got a colourful halter (my fave item), norm black shirt, a red fuzzy pullover and an off shoulder grey top..cheapcheap! shall nt blog abt my senseless prattlings..bt the point is, ah, shopping. :)

oh yea and (i cant remember when) i did volunteer work for charity! haha. as in, i wrapped presents (1buck for each gift) for free (no cip hours....) and ws qt fun la bt i think i scared some people with my wrapping skills. GOOD WRAPPING SKILLS. haha believe what you choose to..anw it ws pure madness. in the end only my sis and i handling the ps shopping crowd with the christmas rush..the things people buy -shakes head- ranges frm ths freaking rich guy w apple ipod, pda, huge lego set etc etc to ths m i s e r..fake ipod made of paper ._.

haha.
anw merry christmas, all!

stephy feefeee! haha coined a new nick for you. yes i agree tht you shld get a new blog..bt knowing you..you'll prolly close it dwn a few months after. anw, am i seeing you+sq tmrw? im FINALLY dne w your pres..been procrastinating it. haha my cuticles and knees are nw pricked with stitch holes! ._. lovee.

keep trying to understand

i dont feel alright.
yknow when people ask you ; so how you been?
its only apt to go ; im fine! with a bigg plastic smile at that.
ok ths entry is pointless so dont bother reading.
im just suddenly hit by paradoxysm of .. sadness. whatever.
im alone ; all alone.
nobody knows and nobody cares to know.
ooh. im fine :)

came across ths online..
one thing that many people don't realize is that the word boob does not apply to all of us. The word boob calls to mind an over-full water balloon stretched to the breaking point, a Bazooka bubble blown past opaque to iridescent. And so, while I stand before you as a member of the boob tribe, I need to make it clear that I do not possess any boobs.
hahaha.

did lotsa quizes!
love taking quizes. haha so lame but qt interesting la..

and guess what..i found out my scent and tranquility is HERB ( the reckonings and analysis were really true but i hate the smell of herbs..its nt evn a scent.. ), that my career personality is um artistic, blahblah, and also that i hv an IQ of 139 which is classified as highly intelligent and that my strength is structural creativity, whtever tht means but wth. if i were highly intelligent i wouldnt be denied sa and end up in cj :( and and get ths : my humour is DARK. as in, goth creepy dark. one word : HUH. im nt a fan of marilyn manson thank you very much..

tings mm you lucky pig..having a good time spa-ing and all i see..anw i did a quiz! its about best friends relationships. ok so lame but im gonna post the results for you to see anw..haha btw did you check your mail? i mailed you eh. but you sign my gbk and dnt rply my mail. mm anw haha hey i DID improve ok..hahaha. -whacks your ass! and im nt a lazy bum..look who's talking..haha yea i knw..yins got into nj too..hey you got same l1r5 as sq right? can get into vj yknow. sigh. im just upset la. i dnt wna go jc at all if yknw wht i mean. call me eh. i nda talk :( eh your secretary just called i think. thought it ws you! chey..haha gv her jacob's no. hw come YOU dnt call me! mm anw, oh well. thts ok i guess..bt at least come back for a week hol or smth in ths 6 month break you hv?? :D heh. anw hv you heard yellowcard's new song : only one? i seriously doubt you hv, being in taiwan and all. err. haha anw i really like it youre my only one! :) SINCE WHEN dyou comb your hair lo. you only like, run your hands through your hair and say youre all set. haha. misses!

results : Have you and your best gf been friends forever? Is your friendship one built on loyalty and a history of helping one another out? Marissa and Summer from "The O.C." would understand.
Despite Marissa's multiple family problems, romance problems and just plain old problems, there has been one girl always by her side--Summer. Sure, she may be extremely concerned with her own appearance and popularity status, but her devotion to Marissa never waivers. These two are in it for the long haul. Let's just say they are so in sync that they even eat their breakfast together. They might not be completely glued together all the time or know of each others' exhilerating/traumatising experiences first-hand, but always know, in-depth, what is going on, and are always there for each other.

Just like Marissa and Summer, it sounds like you and your best gf know what it means to take care of a friend through the hard times and how to party down to celebrate the good. Life may be tough, but it helps when you have a friend who is as reliable as the rising sun. These kind of friends would leave a sweetie behind just to make sure the other is safe walking home. Friends like these guard the bathroom door when the lock is broken, share their new clothes and never spill the beans about the others' secret crush. Given this solid foundation, it's easy to imagine building a sturdy and long-lasting future together.

so, whaddya think? :)
ooh and ths one is my love colour..im terribly bored lahh!

John Alan Lee would identify you as the classic red-blooded lover: passionate, abandoned and a great admirer of physical beauty. Ah, the romantic, the prime target of Cupid's arrow.
When hit, red types have a tendency to fall hard. Think lovesick--fluttering heart, sweating palms, an upset stomach. What do you say, are you a sucker for a stranger's pretty face? And if you meet the right stranger, do you wind up spending every waking minute with your beloved? You may become smitten, but don't worry, it's unlikely you're ever in such a haze that you'll stay in a bad relationship for the sake of love.

theyre saying tht im superficial :(
k..too quizzy alr..
'off!

you make me wanna..lala

been having a quiet peaceful life.
haha not that its been happening or anything.
but for the first time
ive spent 2.5days at home! and i think ll be rotting home till tuesday..STITCHING like an old granny..and reading like a geek..cant wait for weds+thurs..! seeing people i havent seen in a long time. quite long la. and im like, having a pri school cls gathering 3 days aft xmas too..wow. tis the season for gatherings.

tings you stupid girl..i miss you like, fucken much..im damn miserable :( didnt change my numbers at all!! did you key in the wrong country code or something? yea i knw..most people start school in the states in july but you wont be 17 yet eh. HEY WHY DONT YOU COME BACK HERE AND ROT WITH ME..cos like, first 3 months will be damn crappy for me, i hate it..and everyone will be moving on :( then you go back shanghai after march hols la..cos thts when i start school again in the other (or maybe same) jc..anw. haha maybe you can investigate the cause of the rotten smell..and help your cousin get rid of it..err i SORTA curbed by shopping habits bt going back to it again..haha bought..stuff..and shopping with ree a few days frm nw..and i nda get a new bag and shoes for school..I WANT TO SHOP WITH YOU :( excuse me are you coming back..btwbtw i got good progress award!! haha last time i got it ws like, sec2..grr. im really bored. why cant you call through??

cant believe its already 1+
got carried away chatting w mina. yea haha so funny..we just went on and on..were on quite a roll. bad bad day..thought a lot..on thinking mode. i conclude that people are scary, period. you really never know what they think about you. that very sweet smile could be a fake. they could tell you that they love you but the next minute its all 'shes so irritating, get rid of her, lets go out without her' they could tell you youre so skinny and then next thing secretly laugh at the fact that your tummy ws protruding as you were slumped on the chair and also, that youre flat. when people look at me, i feel like screaming, dont judge me, i cant help it if im not pretty. im born with so many imperfections..stop pointing that out to your friends. im wearing whatever i feel like that day. stop saying that i dont look nice in it. its mean. and yea, im talking about myself too. cos i cant stop bitching. and i feel so bad. but thats the way it is. and i dont understand why myself. okay i sound like a mad bitch ranting. actually, nothing happened. just wild random thoughts. haha. madness la. i miss tings.
and i hate cj. as in, i didnt even know it myself till the results came out. i really dont want to be wearing factory worker uniform. ok first three months no needa wear. but still. its traumatising. ( all the nightmare stories ive been hearing ) ok maybe if i put more than 2 choices, i wouldnt end up there. but the thing is, i hate all jcs cos i dont wanna go jc at all. not as in i wanna go poly or anything. i just wanna stay in st nicks. not that i love the school that i want to retain but i prefer secondary school life. ahh whatever.
schools starting in a few weeks.
and i cant help
but feel SO incomplete without tings.
what the hell.
im all alone in a place i hate.
ok i think i dont hate cj in particular ( I THINK ) bt i just hate going to a new environment and seeing new faces and changing and adapting. its redundant. and ok, i also dont wanna be in cj, for certain obvious reasons..
AND i just went shopping..they werent impulsive acts though. haha i really really like my body mist and volcom clutch. and i really really considered and weighed the pros and cons. ok my ass. i bought them cos i like them. but still. there were MANY other stuff at raffles city..i really love that place. actually, ive always loved raffles city. haha. and city link. mm. the point is there were many other wow stuff but i didnt purchase them ok. so. did exercise some self control after all.
SIGH. felt a lot better after shopping..as always..
BUT now..im upset all over again.
shit.
im broke la.
BROKE. but nxt week's arriving..haha. so nvm.
mm loving oceanus. totally.
and im also loving that volcom wallet..and also that ozoc wallet..the butterfly on it ws so pretty..and that necklace thing..crap. steph dont roll your eyes.

listening to ryan cabrera and oliver james :)
BLISSFUL CHEESY SMILE..

Everybody wants to be loved
every once in a while
we all need someone to hold on to
just like a helpless child
yeah
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
and like a lonely highway
i'm trying to get home
love's been a long time coming
you can look for a lifetime
you can love for a day
you can think you got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away
yeah
then you look in my eyes
and i have it all
once again
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
just like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
love's been a long time coming
didn't know i was lost
til you found me

haha. so cheesy. but still :D

i think im nocturnal.
just came home and bathed and stuff..watched the incredibles!! omg its hell good, everyone should watch it. like troy. i mean, its nt like troy, but its a must-watch!!! totally. and i usually hatehatehate cartoony flicks..theyre so lame..finding nemo made me sleep..but ths is really good!! haha. amazing la. mm ate at fish&co, seafood platter for 2 sucks..got so sick of eating (though ws still hungry) wanted to puke!! too much!! ooh but the platter for 1 is really good..used to eat with tings all the time.. anywaywayway..ste&sq!! loved the pres! it ws thoughtful. haha. like last year's. BIG KISS <3 :D :D though the mini cake is probably rotting right nw..heh. and also i decided tht if i ever find some cell phone or digi cam (these are the usual items nwadays) hanging around, forgotten by their owners (who're always bound to come back and hunt feverishly for it), im never gonna keep it for myself!! 'finders keepers losers weepers' just should nt exist..its too cruel to be true. esp when its a newly bought 700+ digicam..sigh. -pats my dear friend on her back- and i'd say tht the people in ps gelare are so freaking rude. esp tht..bung who works thr..mean ass. totally. hate tht place now! grr.
anyway..bought ribbons! haha lameness..and another thread colour..yea spotlight is my new favourite hangout place..and i proclaim myself as broke as anyone can be :( OVERSPENT. totally..currently mending the major hole in my account..luckily i bought all xmas presents..haha. the excitement got to me..anyway..oh yea. nda get smth else for my sis..ahh. and school essentials 1.shoes 2.tote and i'd love a MAC voucher pls..sigh. and again, luckily i got my organiser¬ebooksss&pencilcase alr..haha wht can i say..ive grown up to shop like a kiasu aunty..mm WHT IS GOING ON with tht drop it like its hot song..sheesh. stupidest song ive ever heard. no substance at all..and its nt like, dancey or anyth. and i keep hearing it everytime i start listening to perfect10..stop!! grr.
ok nuff rambling..off i go to resume attending to other activities :)
oh! btw, i love ths song..its nt my favourite song or anyth bt its so sweet la. and its nt like, a sappy ballad or anyth. all bfs shld sing it to their gfs!! or maybe nt if they hv a hideous voice. bt whatever.

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

yayy!! i just heard it on the p10!! yipeeee. hehehe. ok im easily high at night..thinking of buying yellowcard/maroon5's albums..mm ok BROKE.
NIGHTY! :)